yourself as object

I am immersed in reading and arranging words. when I stop, it is yes like emerging. then in the kitchen, I then stand drinking water from a bottle and have a moment of
'I am this person in this room' -- *alone*.
-->that moment, that viewpoint, seems relatively
unnatural ~ unuseful ~ unhealthy.
a viewpoint little green never experiences, let's posit that.
is this to do with being alone, versus together?
but you can yes spend all day alone and not have this kind of moment. not having this moment is what ~?
immersion.(oh dear "being-in-the-world". you are sensation perception thought. you are the body in motion as you walk; the sky the buildings the cars you see; the conversation of the passersby you hear; the delight you feel at two little dogs over there. you are not "me, here, walking down this street." (could you be thinking of how you are "me, here, walking down the street" and not be in a state we'd call alien? alienated from the self which, especially your own, is better not objectified.)